Graduating from college.
When I decided to finish my degree (slash start my degree in Positive Psychology) I figured it was just a check mark on my life list. Something I'm supposed "to do."
But let me tell you!
I feel smarter.
I feel like I can play Sudoku on the hardest level and do the Sunday crossword in the NY Times.
I'm pacing myself and playing on the moderate Sudoku level- mostly because I like going in order. And I'm trying to keep my book nice.
I keep getting these great ideas for apps. And in my head I'm saying, "I'll type up the code for that tonight and sell it in the morning! Ching. Cool million. Made."
Now, I don't know how to write code. I'm not even sure that's what it's called- but I'm confident I can learn it. And quickly too.
I'm envisioning ways to redesign my house like those people on Inception where they can walk up walls and create any world. That's me. Walls removed and rebuilt. Indoor greenhouses. Wall to wall sewing machines. A bread room. It's just flowing from me.
I've made myself a few cups of tea- because it is my personal belief that smart people drink tea.
Especially teas with names like, "Keemun Concerto" and "Breakfast in Paris."
Those teas have just got smart people written all over it.
Unfortunately, and to my dismay, I still strongly dislike the taste of tea.
But! I have found that simply holding a mug filled with steeping steaming tea provides the same feeling of intelligence.
See? Miss Smarty here (that's-a-me) figured that one out with her big college degree.
I've also recently turned 30.
And something magical has been transfixed within me.
The cloud of confidence I normally walk on has grown in magnitude to an out-right thunderhead that is unstoppable.
I am a force.
Someone asks me to do something and I'm like..
I can do it with my eyes closed.
I can do it standing on one foot.
I can do it with one hand tied behind my back.
A few people have made the jokes about turning 30 and getting old- and I'm just not on board there. Why is 30 old? I feel more like myself now. More full of life and breath. More excited than I've ever been. Being 30 is buoyant. The uneasiness I had as a "twenty-something" that I didn't even know I had; has vanished.
Now, I feel if someone questioned my parenting abilities, cooking techniques, driving skills, fashion choices, grammar usage, weight gain, or spelling- I can simply say:
"I'm 30. I've got this."
Because I do.
I've got this.