Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Vacation Woes

Tomorrow I'm flying across the country to see my sister get married.  I'm going solo.  For months I have been excited about this.  So excited it made me feel guilty tell Ken just how excited I was to be going by myself.  Without him.  Without Kole.  Just me. 
Last night at around 3 I woke up in a panic.  How can I leave Koley?  How can I go without my family?  His Grandma Sheri is coming to watch him during the day while Ken is at work.  She knows what to do.  I just suddenly feel unable to go.

What if something happens?
What would happen?
Anything could happen!
What if he cries?

What if he won't take naps?
What if he's grumpy?
What if he only wants him mom?
What if he's mad at me when I get back?

I'll be gone for 5 days.  Not that long.  All my excitement is gone and replaced with worry and dread.  I never went back to bed last night and with Kole's first chirps this morning (at 7:15) I got right up and snuggled him.

Have you vacationed without your kids?  How old were they?  Was it successful?

Talk me off the ledge here.  I bought traveler's insurance and I am all too tempted to cancel my trip and get my money back.

11 comments:

Chris Loves Julia said...

You'll get your money back, but you'll never get the memories that would have been made.

...put that in your book! Hahahaha.

But really, I can't wait to have a little family reunion that won't be complete without Patty Patty.

Poulsen Family said...

We were gone from Max for seven days and I don't regret it one bit! Kole will love the attention he gets from his grandma. You will enjoy the break and be rejuvenated when you get home! Have SO much fun.

Lynn Proctor said...

i have never done this--but my namesake niece is getting ready to go to ireland on Sunday with her husband--he won the trip through work--and this will be their anniversary the day they leave--she is just like you about the thoughts of leaving her two boys---the boys grandmothers will take turns caring for them and will probably have a ball--enjoy your trip!

Juli said...

I divorced when the boys were 1 and 2. So, I had a rare night here and there without them in the beginning. But they were with their FATHER so I suppose that didn't count.

Then last August i had my honeymoon, they were 9 and 10, it was weird, but so freeing and empowering. I am so glad we did it sans children.

We have over the years taken off for 23 hours at a time, and every time, although I miss them, it was ALWAYS worth it.

Enjoy your time patty-cake!

Joanne said...

When I turned forty my husband and I went away for three days/two nights. My son had just turned two. I was confident only because I was leaving my two kids with my sister and brother-in-law. They are the most responsible people I know and I could never leave them with anyone else. But I have to say I called often and by the second day I missed them terribly.
You are so completely normal! Have a great time.
Blessings, Joanne

Holli Fuhriman said...

Last year Ben and I went on a 5 day trip to cabo. Andrew was 10 months and Julia was 2 1/2. I had a bit of a hard time mostly when I thought of worst case scenarios. We went to cancun this spring and it was much easier but we took Stuart with us do I felt a little guilty about that.

I've never been away by myself for more than an evening though. I think I would probably sacrifice one of my toes for the opportunity you're getting tomorrow!!

Brett and Tiffany said...

It is normal to have those anxious feelings...anyway, normal for me! I always get nervous when i know I am leaving my kids, but it is good for everyone! good for them, good for you, all around! It is hard, but you will be busy and you don't want to miss it! Kole will love being with his grandma and dad! Go and have a good time! it will be a good trip to take...especially before the baby comes! He is in good hands!
I cry when I leave my kids...ask Brett! But when I keep busy it is easier. The nights were always the hardest for me because then I had more time to think about them. By the end of the trip I was always ready to come home and be "mom" again, but I don't regret going! Have fun! Can't wait to see pics of the wedding and the fun you have!

Kar said...

Such a good idea about traveler's insurance, dude. My mom really should get that. Something always happens to her on trips for some reason.

It's good for Kole to have time with his grammy. It will make him more well-rounded. That's what I say. Dylan went to daycare for his entire first year, and it killed me, but after being in daycare, he would go to any of his relatives - no prob. He ran into nursery without looking backward. I loved that. It made him more independent. Just think of it in that way.

megan said...

I've never taken a long vacation away from my family. I wish I could though! lol Kole will be fine and he will be so excited to see you when you get back!!:) He definitely won't be mad! I bet he'll snuggle and not let go for a while:) Have fun!

Joshua said...

I have anxiety for you now! GAH!

Misha Gericke said...

Yeah you can't miss the wedding! :-)