Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Restless Nights

I looked at my preggie ticker and saw that I am in the single digits. 9 weeks. That can't be right. I just found out I was pregnant like last month. (Not actually true. Just feels that way.)
I'm going to the doc every two weeks to check up on my mancub. The nursery is complete- although it is missing a mattress... and little things.... like clothes, onesies, diapers. I was up in bed last night much too excited (and uncomfortable) to sleep and I had four bajillion-gazillion thoughts going through my head. Is it a first time mommy thing?
  • I don't know how to be a mom.

  • I know how to babysit.

  • Are they similar?

  • Is someone going to teach me how to nurse?

  • The books are really confusing.

  • I could write a book.

  • What does this baby-meister look like?

  • I hope he has dark hair.

  • I hope he has hair.

  • I don't think that bald is beautiful.

  • A mom would think bald is beautiful.

  • I'm going to be a horrible mom.

  • Some ice cream would make that feeling go away.

  • Ken is sleeping.....

  • I think I'll let my kids have late night snacks when their dad is asleep and they are sad.

  • I'm going to be a great mom.

  • I have to go to the bathroom.

  • I'm glad Ken is good at nicknames.

  • My dad is really good at nicknames... although sometimes they are a little off kilter.

  • How did Julie get the name "Stinkweeder?"

  • I've called the un-born child stinkweeder.

  • He doesn't smell stinky at all.

  • I don't think he can smell either.

  • Do you have to be able to breathe to smell.

  • *Breathing In* Yeah, I think so.

  • Those nachos at Greta's blessing were really good.

  • I want a whole big can of that cheese sauce from Sam's.

  • Wouldn't it be cool to register at Sam's?

  • I just want to hold my own baby.

  • I have to go to the bathroom.

  • I'm going to let other people hold my baby whenever they want.

  • I understand why my mom always made us sit down to hold babies when we were little.

  • My mom was literally super mom.

  • Ken keeps telling me I'll be a mom like my mom.

  • That's encouraging.

  • Those tangerines we got were not very tasty.

  • I could eat fruit all day.

  • Is that a craving?

  • I haven't craved a lot during this pregnancy.

  • Swimming. That was a craving.

  • I want a real fat baby.

  • I hope his knees and knuckles and elbows are just dimples.

  • That's how Greta is right now.

  • Funny. That's cute on babies and GROSS on adults.

  • I wonder why Ken is skipping the doctor appointment tomorrow.

  • Is it not exciting for him anymore?

  • What if we are dead-beat parents?

  • What if we're all talk?

  • Just decide to do it and do it.

  • Be involved.

  • Love the kids.

  • "Kids." You're only having one!

  • We do refer to this baby as "the kids" sometime.

  • I don't want to wait a long time in between babies.

  • I like close families.

  • I have to go to the bathroom.

  • It would be scary to be a baby.

  • It is scary to be a mom.

  • Am I considered a mom already?

  • Every single time I think of a mom I think of peanut butter and jelly sandwiches.

  • Vicky hates it when people say "every single" anything.

  • Pet peeves are hilarious.

  • Ken and I have been really happy lately.

  • I think starting our family has unified us.

  • Do people really break up because of the kids?

  • That seems strange.

  • Does that make me sound naive?

  • I love that Kenny Chesney song "Alive and Well."

  • That song inspired me to put glow-in-the-dark stars up in the baby's room.

  • The stars are more for me than for him right now.

  • I have to go to the bathroom.

Restless nights.


Karlenn said...

I love this post! LOVE IT!! I think being a mom is easier than baby-sitting. You have more authority. And you love them more than you love other peoples' kids. I'm jealous that you feel your pregnancy has gone fast. I feel like I've been pregnant for 20years. You like Kenny Chesney? Ew. And yes, we're going to Friday night's thingey. I'll have to deal with Micah instead of playing games, though. Sigh. Are you going? Let's go and sit at the same tables and play. I'll pretend to play. But I'll just be dealing with Micah.

Chris-baby and Jules-a-bug said...

I, too, adore this post. As I was reading it I felt like YOU were reading MY mind when I was pregnant. Except instead of the PB&j making me feel like a mom...browning ground meat--just the words, just the act--total mom. You'll be a great one. And a funny one. And a fun one--just like ours. And yeah, I think you are already a mom.

The Empey Fam! said...

hahahahahhahaha I LOVE IT! i was laughing the WHOLE ENTIRE TIME! i also had my friend read it! she was laughing! SOOOO TRUE! YOu will be such a great Mom!!!

Brett and Tiffany said...

I know you will be a terrific mom! You were born to be! Your kid(s) are lucky to have you as a mom! The things you are nervous about...you will figure them out...just like the rest of us did! It's in us to learn! My advice...the books DON'T know everything! Be the mom! Every baby is different and that is part of the blessing of being a mom...you will know what is right for YOUR baby!

Natalie said...

Will you be the mother to my kids, I think they would enjoy you much better!

Anonymous said...

LOL! I loved reading your thoughts! You will be a great mom! You seem like the kind of person that will be able to be best friends with her kids, but also still treat them like you're in charge. A lot of parents can't do both. You'll be a good mom!